Trust

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight" Proverbs 3:5-6

How many times have we quoted that? We all know it by heart and recall it on a regular basis (and by "we" I mean "I"...because I can only speak for myself...but if I use "I" that many times in a blog I'll start to sound self-centered :P) Over and over for as long as I can remember. And I believe it, I really do. But do I live it?
I am a self-proclaimed planner. Always have been, I think it's the perfectionist in me. Actually, I've gotten alot less "planny" since I graduated (I know that's gonna come as a shock to my college friends lol) Used to, if someone called me up at 6 pm to do something that night, I'd probably make an excuse not to go, simply because I didn't plan on it. Now I'm not saying that I'm not a world class procrastinator when I don't want to do something...because the only person I believe who can out procrastinate me is my dear friend "wait til 3 am to start that final project" Ashley :P But if it's something important, something I care about or something that I enjoy doing....it's getting planned.

So...I guess all of this is the long-winded (me? long winded? no!!) way to say, God is throwing everything that I've planned out the door. Ok, maybe not everything, but He's showing me that some things I can't plan, I can only rely on Him. I am moving in a week....I have no idea where I'll be working in 2 wks. Absolutely no idea. This would normally scare the crap out of me. I hate the idea of not being positive where I'll be working after graduation, but 2 wks! I am totally and completely trusting that He's going to work something out...but I have to wait on His timing. Either He's going to provide me with the perfect job on campus that will give me good hours, relevent work and valuable experience, or there's some reason that I'm supposed to stay at my current job. I gotta be honest, if that's the case, I'm not gonna be too happy with that lol But i know that there will be a purpose and I've gotta trust that it's in my best interest. This is probably just the biggest leap of faith I've had to take. Decided to move was a huge one, but one that I knew without a doubt was the right one. I didn't take it lightly at all and in the end I was sure that that's where God wanted me and He would work out all the money issues. And I'm still relying on that fact, especially not knowing where I'll be working. lol But God will provide all my needs, it may not be easy and it may not be in the way that I would prefer...otherwise I'd be on my way to being married and driving a very nice car....;)...but He'll provided nonetheless. He always has and He always will :D